SHIO_Chess

Why must everything i hold dear be ripped away from me.....it hurts to just have to make more friends and end up hurting myself all over again its starting to just feel pointless its starting to eat at me and i really cant take it much longer i already cu* myself almost weekly because everything is just stressing the shi* out of me but now one of my friends are going to commit something i dont want them to do but i dont think i can even help at all its just so utterly pointless to even make more friends when they just fall apart and leave or die,i lost the feeling of whats important anymore its just so utterly useless to even try anymore isn't it?

Well that is what one part is saying while the other is trying to fight against it to protect me from burnout or going numb.One part is saying its pointless and the other is trying to break through to keep me safe its one part of me fighting against the other...

“Don’t judge me unless you have looked through my eyes, experienced what I went through, and cried as many tears as me. Until then back-off, cause you to have no idea.”

“The worst kind of pain is when you’re smiling just to stop the tears from falling.”

“Moving on doesn’t mean you forget about things. It just means you have to accept what’s happened and continue living.

“Whatever you kids decide, think it through first. Feelings are difficult to kill, but they’re a lot harder to resurrect.” - Assassination classroom 

“The greatness of a mind is determined by the depth of its suffering.”

“Maybe I can stay and find some other nice people who will like me and accept me for who I am.”

“Everything in this world is just a game and we are merely the pawns.”

“False tears bring pain to those around you. A false smile brings pain to one’s self.”

“Judgment comes for us all,but who are you to judge?“ - SHIO_chess

“if you stare directly at reality,you'll end up going blind so do it in moderation“ - Mesmerizer